I really like when things are black or white. I like clear boundaries and expectations. I like preparation and familiarity.
Every so often I long for a sprinkle of change and surprise and adventure. Sometimes it definitely is good to switch things up. Like reorganizing a room or trying out a new recipe. And there definitely is a thrill in going on a spontaneous road trip to enjoy some new scenery, or going on an expedition to an unknown place.
It's the change that we have no control over that's the problem. When we're forced to tip-toe into the unfamiliar territory. Or plunge head-first in some cases.
It's the grey areas.
They are so many problems with grey. It's the colour of stifling smoke. Soggy slush. Filmy fog. Murky mud. It's so unclear. Suffocating. Depressing. Blinding. Dirty.
At least when everything is black, your eyes can rest and you know where you're supposed to be. All you have to do is stand in one place.
In the grey areas you can't see your feet touching the ground. You are constantly searching for the light. For a moment of clarity. For reassurance that your feet are secure. You don't rest. You walk in circles and zig-zag lines. Desperate. Trying to find an unknown destination.
That is the problem with grey. It's a colour of frenzied confusion and miserable discomfort.
So what do you need to remember when you find yourself in the midst of the fog?
1. Navigating is not our job.
Nobody ever said that we have to figure out a cure for the grey areas of life. Just like we have no control over the morning fog, we have no control over the every-day unknowns.
Job 37:6 says that God knows the 'balancing of the clouds.'
It is not our place to navigate through the world. He has control. His job is to understand the fog and make things clear to our human eyes in His perfect timing.
2. There is no such thing as 'the unknown.'
The unknowns of life are only unknown to us. Our stories have already been written, and our job is to have faith in the One who knows us best.
Job 28:24 says that 'He sees everything under the heavens.'
We serve the most incredible God who is Ever-Present and All-Knowing.
His plans for us are incomprehensible (Ephesians 3:20).
3. Just because you can't see the end does not mean you are alone.
Even better than the fact that He knows everything about us (Psalm 139), He has given us the option of spending every moment with Him.
When we are unsure about where to go next, when we can't see where our feet are standing or the path in front of us, we simply need to look beside us and grab onto The Hands that shaped the world in the first place.
He goes before us, and He stands beside us (Deuteronomy 31:8).
The grey areas are a time to practice trusting. No matter what the situation. Whether it's your future that seems grey or even the next minute of your life.
These areas aren't really grey at all. They aren't ugly or suffocating or depressing.
Growth happens in the grey. Hope shines in the grey. Trust builds in the grey.
Sky blue. Bleu de France. Tiffany box blue. Blueberry blue. Ocean blue. Periwinkle.
We are in between the faint Baby Blue of our beginning and the rich Royal Blue that will be our entrance into the Kingdom of Heaven.
We are in the Cornflower Blue.
And it is a beautiful place to be.
I know who goes before me, I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies is always by my side